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Sheltering Walls

Bare Trees in Fog

Years ago, fourteen to be exact, I was in the midst of writing a graduate thesis on pilgrimage. I undertook some solo pilgrimages to corroborate my own writing which would have otherwise qualified as research trips, if it had been that cut and dried. Pilgrimage is anything but, and opens up worlds beyond one’s limited imagination. But, academia being what it is, I had to qualify whatever I put on the page. As preparation for a pilgrimage to the Hopi Reservation in Arizona, I contacted my daughter’s fifth grade American History teacher to ask for books he might share about Native Americans. “We do not teach about Native Americans in American History,” he said, unapologetically. An explanation did not follow. Clearly, this too is part of the dreadful apocalyptic story of Indigenous peoples in the U.S. and elsewhere. I then asked the College President and Dean, Steven Charleston, a native Choctaw, how to approach the Hopi, “people of peace.” He offered the following: “The Hopi are the most secluded of all Indigenous people. In order to preserve their rituals and culture, the Hopi have retreated from the world.” I would not be allowed to photograph or to participate in any rituals of the clan, if I was lucky enough to catch one of their impromptu ceremonies. A few days at the Hopi/CulturalCenter/Museum/Restaurant/Inn offered a glimpse of a way of life that both seemed different and the same in some ways to my own small community on the tip of Cape Cod. Encounters were brief. I spent more time driving alone in a car without cell phone service or radio for long distances between mesas stirring up a sense of endlessness. "Take only what you carry in your heart," say the Hopi. What I took home from the pilgrimage, was an enormous sense of an endless world of time and space. The Hopi have been living on "Turtle Island," aka North America, for longer than any other native peoples and "longer than anyone can count," says Charleston in his new book in which he dedicates a full chapter to the Hopi. He does not reveal sacred rituals to the reader but instead points to an enlightened way of approaching a world and culture destined for apocalypse, as all native peoples have endured and survived. Hence the title: We Survived the End of the World.


Many people today are anticipating an apocalyptic 2024 given global crises manifesting everywhere at once. Rather than spelling these out, I will say they are all of a piece, all tightly woven together without knowing exactly which is most important or what can be done about any one of the major issues facing the whole world. How did the Native peoples do it when faced with the fear of decimation of all they valued and held sacred? Apocalypse, is the word that Charleston explores through their eyes. Doomsday was not in their vocabulary.


The lessons to be learned from Hopi and Native peoples is that it is the very nature of rituals and cultural norms that hold the community together in spite of a looming apocalypse that threatened to destroy it all. An apocalypse will not come as an ending the way that fearful minds imagine, but will effectively end the detrimental ways that we ourselves have wrought by our choices for or against wars and weapons and human and animal rights, and all the rest of it.


The day is coming, many would agree, when change will end life as we know it today. How that will look in the end, which according to Hopi is never ending, is a choice we can each make for ourselves, and collectively as community. When my pilgrimage to Hopi Land was coming to an “end,” I saw posted on the Center’s door a notice for a ceremony in the plaza that Saturday. No time was given. The location was: “Tuwanasavi: The Center of the Universe.”



 
 
 

Do you know what it feels like to light a candle in the window then wait for someone to come home? Have you ever? I have done so both literally and figuratively. The candlelight signals that the door is still open. All is well. All is forgiven. The candlelight reflects back in the window pane another message to the candle lighter: There is hope.


Forgiveness and hope burn the candle on both ends as partners in love. Forgiveness is of the will: Will I or will I not forgive you this time, yet again? It's always a choice, a decision to be made. Hope is of the heart: I light my candle in the dark hoping that someone will find their way, or that I will find mine. Who hasn't been on one side of a closed door as either candle lighter or wayfarer looking for a light to find the way?


The act of lighting a candle for another often comes from a deep seated desire to say something into the darkness that words cannot. Searching for the right words to say is one of the hardest and holiest earthly needs we all share. We all need to speak our truth with love and we all need to be heard.


Symbolically, Christmastide is full of candlelighting both at home and in some churches. I have given and received many candles over the years, including this Christmas. The promise is the same whether one is the giver or the receiver: This candle will be lit by you or me with hope for something in our hearts. Maybe that something is what we cannot say -- cannot find words to speak because it would bring to light the deepest hope and fears of our heart and soul.


. . ." The hopes and fears of all the years are met in thee tonight." We don't stop singing when we get to that line in the carol. We sing through to the end. Yet, how profound are those words that speak for us, the way a candle lights our way.


As far as I know, there is no statute of limitations on actively waiting with hope. It's not a waiting game of outlasting another, or trying to beat the time clock. We have hope. Must have, but how? I believe hope is a stance, a position with which we turn and face the world. Without hope, how dark things would be, like darkness without candlelight. Let's not pretend that we don't need hope because more than ever, we most certainly do. We can be both candle lighter and the one looking for the light. Both require hope. Whenever we put a candle in the window, literally or figuratively, we can't help but wonder: Will it be seen? Will it help bring someone home? Will it help me to find my way? Will it help me to feel hopeful? We won't know unless we try. What do we have to lose?








 
 
 

Here we are, days away from the first of the Twelve Days beginning on Christmas Day and ending on January 6, the feast of Epiphany, or the Feast of the Three Kings, depending on where you live. The lyrics of this popular carol test our collective memories each year as we count down from the twelfth to the first day naming gifts that "my true love gave to me." How many gifts spring to mind? This old chestnut, best sung with others to keep up the momentum and the memory, is all in good cheer. What follows is a "spoiler alert" for any readers in my family.


This year when the stockings are all hung with care, my stocking stuffer for college grandkids and grown children is the book: "On Tyranny Twenty Lessons from the Twentieth Century." Bah humbug! It's not exactly twelve lords are leaping, beginning with chapter one: "Do not obey in advance" and a hundred pages later concluding with the twentieth: "Be as courageous as you can." Why this book this year? Why not the traditional "A Child's Christmas in Wales"? There is room for both, but this year we must ask ourselves "If I am (only) for myself, what am I. And if not now, when?” – Hillel*


This "how to" book on living democratically when all signs point to its destruction and demise, guides the average American, you and me and your families and friends, toward action that is based on experiences of those who know more than we do about tyranny, so far. It opened my eyes to the subtleties and not so subtle historical events that easily paved the way for tyrants to assume total power over people. For example: "Nazi storm troopers began as a security detail clearing the halls of Hitler's opponents during his rallies." . . ."What was novel in 2016 was a candidate who ordered a private security detail to clear opponents from rallies . . ." (Page 44-45).

"Believe in Truth." Chapter 10 begins: "You submit to tyranny when you renounce the difference between what you want to hear and what is actually the case." Author, Timothy Snyder describes how "Truth dies in four modes. First, open hostility to verifiable reality...The second mode ... endless repetition ... The systematic use of nicknames ... 'Crooked Hillary'... repeated chants ... 'Build that wall'... The next mode is magical thinking, or the open embrace of contradiction...A disease that kills hundreds of thousands will vanish ...The final mode is misplaced faith...'I am your voice.' (Pages 66-67)


The litany of words like lyrics of the "Twelve Days" stick with you. If they become absorbed and embedded into one's mind, one's thoughts, one's beliefs, all is lost and the tyrant WILL seize the day. "Most of the power of authoritarianism is freely given." That is the first sentence of this book. It should play over and over in our thoughts like "Five gold rings" the one line everyone seems to remember when singing along. We could use a melody to underscore "Most of the power of authoritarianism is freely given" then sing it from the rooftops for all to hear. If that's not your style, or you live in a place like Florida where certain voices are drowned out by louder ones that run with the tyrants, then ask Santa for the book: On Tyranny by Timothy Snyder. It's a gift we owe ourselves at this critical juncture.



















 
 
 
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